Even with all that I do it is never enough
I am always riding on your coat tales left behind
Always dragging in the dust of your exhaust
Cursed to remain LOST in the prison of my mind
You take credit for all of my attempts
All the times I try to make a place for myself in this hell
My hard work is all for naught in the end
Because all the glory is your own when you tell the tale
Bitterness eats away at this pit that once was called my heart
Pain leaves scars too deep to heal upon my SOUL
Grabbing desperately you steal all for yourself
Expecting me to pay the toll
This can't go on
This isn't real
I am tired of being what I'm not,
But I no longer know who I used to be
That girl died so very long ago
I buried her out back where no one could see.
Each night, I sit by her grave
Paper flowers in my cold hands
Each night I feed them to the flames
I've long since given up on praying for an end
If I could live only in dream
I'd spend each night with you
But the truth is I stopped dreaming long ago
And all the lies were too good to be true
But still in these tired hands
I clutch at flowers made of dreams lost
Trapped in this dark and broken soul
The heart all but turned to frost
The squall has taken his last breath
Vicious cha
The end...
You are an angel fallen from heaven,
I'm just a demon risen from hell.
Sweet angel fallen so far from grace,
Into the claws of this devilish ne'er do well.
I found sanctuary inside your heart,
Paths I had no right to tread.
Brought back to life by your tender kiss,
And now you leave me for dead.
Now your saving grace is gone,
And I have no more tears.
But I refuse to drag you along,
To face these darkest fears.
Bury me deep beneath your wings,
And pray my end comes swift.
Let me smile upon your beauty,
In life's last loving gift.
Goodbye
Never Again
You are the one who possesses my heart,
You are the one dug under my skin.
After one night's blaze I was left in cold ash,
For my foolish passion I killed all we had.
And with
Every sweet tear you've cried on my behalf,
The knife severs my veins one by one.
As a sigh escapes from parted lips,
The pain is exsquisite for I know I deserve no less,
For hurting the one I love…
Above all others…
Unto death…
Without hope of redemption.
And even though
My flesh cringes from the kiss of steel,
I can not promise
I will never hurt you again.
The future's too uncertain…
But will you believe me,
If I say,
I will never hurt
The end...
You are an angel fallen from heaven,
I'm just a demon risen from hell.
Sweet angel fallen so far from grace,
Into the claws of this devilish ne'er do well.
I found sanctuary inside your heart,
Paths I had no right to tread.
Brought back to life by your tender kiss,
And now you leave me for dead.
Now your saving grace is gone,
And I have no more tears.
But I refuse to drag you along,
To face these darkest fears.
Bury me deep beneath your wings,
And pray my end comes swift.
Let me smile upon your beauty,
In life's last loving gift.
Goodbye
I am tired of being what I'm not,
But I no longer know who I used to be
That girl died so very long ago
I buried her out back where no one could see.
Each night, I sit by her grave
Paper flowers in my cold hands
Each night I feed them to the flames
I've long since given up on praying for an end
If I could live only in dream
I'd spend each night with you
But the truth is I stopped dreaming long ago
And all the lies were too good to be true
But still in these tired hands
I clutch at flowers made of dreams lost
Trapped in this dark and broken soul
The heart all but turned to frost
The squall has taken his last breath
Vicious cha
Consume me
The thought of you has
Erase me
Let me be a memory
Push me
Im fading away fast
Cure me
Im your disease
Burn me
Im in the fire shedding skin
Slit me
Another scar completes the map
Repeat everything
Rinse me in shame again
Kill me
Let the knife commence the stab
Cruscify me
Let these sins wash away
Hang me
Tie the rope around my neck
Point your finger
Im the only one to blame
Take me
If theres anything left....
An obscure veiw is cast upon the pale grey skies
As rain falls almost endlessly upon trees dead and dry
I rip apart my flesh and close my bloodshot eyes
Im lost in nowhere, yet no one am I
Time flows on as my heart is skipping beat after beat
A song played out to many times because it was left on repeat
The soul carries on ready to fade and decease
Another mistake, Another disease, I will only bleed
My scabs crack and peel, my skin sheds its shame
Left alone in darkness im the only one to blame
The shadow over turns, Im starting to feel a change
The life that was there dissapears, and now its gone away
Im becoming more dead inside
Favourite genre of music: Dark and Emotional usually. Favourite photographer: Many Favourite style of art: Many Operating System: Mobile AMD Sempron MP3 player of choice: mine Favourite cartoon character: Zelgadis, Ed, Alucard Personal Quote: I love you with all my black little heart.
Favourite Visual Artist
Many
Favourite Movies
Many
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Negative, HIM, Aiden, Christian Death, NIN, I am Ghost, the list goes on...
Goodness me... its been a long time my darlinks.
Life has changed drastically for me since last I was here and not all for the better. But I am trying to crawl out of the grave once more and return to the land of the living.
I am trying to make it through school. My degree which I should have been getting the beginning of next year will likely at the end instead, but I am slowly making progress.
Have been working on some more creative endeavors but most of them appear instead on my other account.
Anyway, should any of you care, I just wanted to put out the word that I have returned as well as I can.
Take care darlinks,
Till we speak a
I know it has been a great deal of time since I have uploaded anything new here, and there are many reasons for that, lack of a good quality digital camera and many many projects building up in the works to slow me down have been the two main reasons.
Another being I have spent a great deal of more time doing more art by traditional means, or things that I myself just do not believe fit within my darker works account.
Some perhaps could sit within my gallery here quite comfortably, but for reasons of my own, I have uploaded them to my other gallery instead.
If any of you are interested in seeing them they can all be found here within the a